i'm sick of not having the courage to be an absolute nobody.

halo para deviant, pa kabar?tah,f3 gw donk..udah kangen gw sumpah!
gila teman2 dA makin jago aja hari ke harinya nih..sudah ktinggalan jauh sekali agaknya saya..hahaha.

selamat taun baru 2008 yak kawan2

these nights i've been sitting accompanying and articulating the silences of the world,and i've gained peace in every aspect for a moment now and then.its not eternal,i know,but this feeling really gives me joy for having done and said everything i had to;i'd rather question nothing than question everything.sometimes the things we look for is only below our noses without us noticing it; we curse and be accused,blamed and be blamed,love and be loved with the most obvious people we could possibly thought were never the ones to have done that.

well,um,i have something i really wanna ask though,but in the first place you've got to believe that aliens really exist,if not imagine they did.
here it goes : how does one alien think another alien is pretty or handsome?
then the second : do aliens question the same thing about us humans?

i need an answer please.tell me what you think,alright!
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ps i wrote this thread in english because i actually wanna share with everyone

halo teman2 deviantArt!mo curhat dikit ah.
dlm waktu bbrp hari ini gw mo pindah ke bandung buat kuliah.dulu gw udah selalu ngidam buat bisa jauh dari keluarga dan rumah.skrg bntar lagi terwujud..wanjinngg tapi ternyata gw ga seseneng yg gw kira.disana rutinitas bakal berubah total.bebas sih,tapi setelah dipikir2 bakal kangen sm jkt..di jkt idup gw terjadwal bgt,apalagi pas hari sekolah.membosankan sih,tapi setelah lulus gw jadi kangen bgt sm rutinitas sekolah;ga bisa ketemu temen2 tiap hari sampe muak,ga bisa pake seragam sma bareng2,ga bisa ke sriwi(tempat nongkrong pulang skolah)yg jadi tempat pelarian dari bimbel,ga bisa nyari rokok impor bareng2 abis pulang skolah,ga bisa denger kultum dr guru2 yg intinya kurang bisa ditangkep otak,ga bisa menggunjing guru,ga bisa dihukum berdiri di tengah ruang guru selama 2 jam pelajaran gara2 ga bawa buku,ga bisa kesusahan nyari omprengan buat pulang,ga bisa ngomel curhat ttg panasnya udara,ga bisa tosan sm yg remed dan mengutuk yg ga remed lagi..waah banyak bgt deh..sayang bgt selama sma gw terutama kls 1 & 2 ga menikmati masa2 indah.ya mungkin skrg gw ngmg bgini,tapi kalo disuruh balik ke 3 taun lalu gw mikir2 1000 kali juga,haha.
dulu waktu baru masuk segala macem om2 dan tante2 pada bilang 'wah masuk sma ya?nikmati tuh.masa paling indah' tiap kali gw denger ini gw cuma bisa menggumam sendiri 'iya..iya..tua bgt sih..',tapi skrg gw baru tau mrk bener bgt!di sma kita ga perlu terlalu usaha buat dpt tmn,soalnya mau ga mau pasti bakal saling kenal gara2 ketemu tiap hari.tapi di kuliah..rasanya nyari temen ga segampang sma.ahhh smoga aja banyak temen2 yg mau jadi temen gw disana..buat teman2 da di bandung,bantu saya yaa nanti..hehehe..
terimakasih sudah membaca!
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take a look at some recent re-uploaded deviations:
mare vitalis.
streetlight and clouds
memorandum
the concepts of movements
and some old deviations:
forever longing to the golden sunset
the raffles park
le parc de merlion
flight 101
an unstarry night
the flag of surrealism
a light that always goes out.
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hello everyone!
so im on my desk sitting on my usual chair,staring to the same old lcd monitor i've been staring at for some years now.i mustve thought a lot,i guess, and i think i feel like i want to spill some of it here in the devart(yeah i seemed to like typing it that way rather than typing it the DA way) journal.
i thought about the bonds of us humans.especially what happens between people when they separate for some time,not contacting each other for some time,then,one day they happen to meet again-digitally or face-to-face-ending up not knowing what the hell they have to say to each other,or,in other words,petrified. then one of them would think something like,'why should time change us?' and ' its sad that people had to give up on memories'.well,i thought about this.
this also happens to me,and when i think about things like this,it makes me prepared not to get so touchy if someday i would meet someone that i know of-or maybe i dont know anymore-because i know he/she will have the feeling that he/she wanna be close to me again,but he/she wouldn't know how.and i know what they really think-that they really-maybe-want to get the best out of us back again,but they just wouldn't be able to.
if everyone thinks like this,though,the world would be such a silent place because then everyone didn't need to really express how they feel about each other because they KNOW they already know. see what i mean?that feeling that 'im just feeling a bit extinct in you,my friend, now that its been a long time we stopped knowing-note;not recognizing,but knowing-each other.'
so the final point i reached,in short,is that really,time would stay forever,but it will destroy us all, if not physically destructive,then mentally destructive.i guess there's no way people can damn escape time,for now,because people are actually really pinned to space and time,like a specimen in a box.
that's all i got to say..if you have any comment or anything to brag about,i really would love to hear it.seriously.
well,thanks for reading

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